Health, frustration, blargh.

So ended up not getting blood test today because doctor thinks my results are stable enough we can go to monthly tests. I'm not entirely happy with this as the createnine results have increased steadily (by five points) every result and are now at the same level they were back in December.

If I was feeling well I'd be alright with it, but my exhaustion continues. Over the weekend I failed to watch five episodes of things because I fell asleep during every one, this morning I had an hour long battle to stay awake, get out of my chair and walk ten feet across the room to take the rest my meds. I cannot stress how much that isn't a joke.

All this has set my depression off rather badly, not anything to worry about but I've been crying quite a bit because all I want to do is get on with things and this constant lack of energy and exhaustion is stopping me from doing that.

(And of course there's the whole looking for another job thing, where I'm convinced if I get one it'll end up the same way as my last one, with me unable to physically cope and ending up back on the dole again, missing Redemption for the scond time in a row hasn't helped the mood either.)